Self control – There is such a thing!

“As a woman you are better off in life earning your own money. You couldn’t prevent your husband from leaving you or taking another wife, but you could have some of your dignity if you didn’t have to beg him for financial support.”

Ayaan Hirsi Ali

This weekend, I’m visiting my family, it’s a birthday weekend here!!! Currently, 3:50 AM and I’ve woken up brutally from a nightmare that I’d frankly like to forget – Hence why it won’t be discussed here. I have also realized that my mom snores all night and since we share a bed, I won’t be falling asleep anytime soon…

Yesterday, we (siblings & I) went to the shopping mall, although there is money in my bank account and several things that I need (okay… okay… maybe I just want them!), I didn’t buy a thing !!!

It’s a weird thing I found, once your goals are starting to define themselves, it becomes easier to say no to rushed expenses. The “do I want it or do I need it ” never made more sense.

The current financial goal for my upcoming paycheques: determine where my money is going.

What’s yours?

Josie Escapes…

Ugh! That Awkward season again

“The fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. Wanting friends, but hate socializing. Wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely.”

I’m getting a pedicure today, sitting in the nail salon while someone is carefully taking care of my feet, I can’t stop thinking (Insert a French curse here). I have been going to the same Nail Salon for about 5-6 years – this is probably my longest relationship with anything in my life. I used to come here happy and chat about everything and anything. Now, I found I can’t speak anymore, I have lost the touch… If it isn’t “drywall” I don’t know what to say. Putting aside the fact that I am mentally tired and physically exhausted every time I go there, so all I want is rest, but I’d like for people to talk to me.

The last few weeks have been hard, it’s been a mix of me being too hard on myself and beating myself down for the wrong choices I made! I also have noticed that maybe I am just a summer person, I like biking, I like getting out there but not in the “awkward season” – I know you’re wondering what I mean so hang in there… The “awkward season for me” is the period between the end of the hot days (below 24°C) and January 5th. In that period of time, I basically have nothing to do with my life, I hate going out in the cold – I just lied, I’ll do it if there is booze, but you can’t bike and drive nor go drink by yourself in the forest, unless you are looking to die… and I’m not in that business.

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What is it really ?

“A budget tells us what we can’t afford but it doesn’t keep us from buying it”

William Feather

Lately, I have been working a lot. Yet, I am still very broke.

 Not sure If I am the only one experiencing this or If I am doing something wrong? Have you ever been in a position where you feel like having one stream of income is not enough?

At a friends birthday 2 weeks ago, we were discussing how much I do make money for my age but I still don’t have money to spend on general family/friends social affairs. The conversation went somewhat like followed :

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You are now old!

“You are the oldest that you have ever been and the youngest that you will ever be in this present moment.”

How do you spend your time? What do you do to fulfill your dreams?

At brunch this morning, I had an interesting conversation about how a busy individual would always know what they would do when not busy and when actual free time comes, it is wasted, leaving one wondering if they ever would do anything anymore. We came to the conclusion that it is all about planning. I say: “If you plan your free time the way you plan your life, you might actually accomplish way more in life…”

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Rock Bottom ? Was it !??

Apparently Rock Bottom has a basement… – random quote 

It’s funny how sometimes, you can tell yourself : ” This is it ! It is the worst possible for me, – because someone else might have lower lows – I don’t think it can get any worse.” And definitely life has a way of proving us wrong every time – as if its ultimate goal was to stick it up your bum every time your think you’re the S$*t.

“Oh ! So you think you got it together eh !? hahaha… Well looks like you don’t know me! ” – life.

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OMG Thomas !!

Another philosophy morning in my university curriculum.

On Friday February  10th -2017, we discussed Thomas Hobbes. Man.. !!! I knew that my thoughts in For your own sake, don’t think ! were already discussed by someone before. Who did I think I was !!!??? trying to bring new Idea into this world ha-ha (When they already exist).

Thomas believed that the human being is naturally violent and we need to create a certain type of civilization to be able to co-exist. He even pushed it to saying that religion was made up.

I feel like studying Thomas will definitely help me frame my thoughts a bit better. So that will be my next “little personal project”.

Don’t worry, I will keep you updated on my research !

Josie escapes…

No strength, No Gain

I’m here to tell you don’t give up !

5:00 AM – I’m still trying to write an assignment due by midnight tonight… Why and how did I let myself get to this point (Procrastination Queen)

I had already joked about it once :” You call it procrastination, I call it excellent time management skills”  … I mean when you look at it, I don’t necessarily procrastinate, I just go on with my life effecting various tasks (Netflix, eating, everything but studying…) and usually do my assignments at a certain time that some people would call “last minute” *Insert eye roll* . But at the end of the day, I did plan on doing it at this time-hours prior to the deadline. Therefore, is that still considered procrastination ?

We’ve all heard the saying : “Don’t push to tomorrow, what you can do today !! – or something like that ”

Well I say, why not ?

Josie escapes…