Societal Pressure – Marry or not Marry ?

“You agreed to spend the rest of your life with someone in front of friends and family and it was a complete lie. How could I ever trust you !!??” – Guy in the show

I personally find dating weird sometimes. Every one seems to have a different definition of being with someone. Each have their own rules as long as at the end you and your partner are on the same page.

I’ve also noticed that it can be particularly tough for immigrant woman to date and find “real love” – whatever that is! – due to a few things mentioned in my Who am I ? – Part 1 post.

Last week, I watched “Dating Around” on Netflix – I don’t even know how/why I ended up watching it. I did not expect to be writing on this topic but Episode 2 of season 1 moved me.

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I would never – My IUD experience P.II

“You are putting an object in your body… Just the idea scares me – I would never” – Anonymous friend

Deciding to go with a long term medical procedure as the IUD  is not for everyone. I chickened out several times before thinking like Nike and “just did it”.

Till this day, although I have my full reasoning in Part 1 of this series, I am not sure how I got past my fear of the gynecologist, pain, etc. and did it.

I went to my consultation alone, as the boyfriend I had at the time did not care much about me to come for support – I didn’t ask/he should have offered – okay maybe I’m just being petty ahora. I remember walking in telling myself: “This is just a consultation, you go in ask questions, get out no commitment”.  As soon as I walked into the room and sat down with the nurse I told her: “let’s not waste our time, I’ve done my research, I want the copper IUD.” – Talking about assertion! Usually, they spend a half hour talking to you about different birth control methods, etc. followed by the sentence: “well, I’ll let you think about it”. Which ends up in an unnecessary additional visit to the clinic – No thanks, gas and time are no free amenities.

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How, why an IUD? – My IUD experience P.I

“Abortion is not a form of birth control and parenting is no game”

I heard of the IUD for the first time during one of my internships. This amazing young lady shared with me her experience with the hormonal IUD, the installation, insurances and the life after, in one word: amazing. I was intrigued.

Weirdly enough, since I started this blog, this is the one topic that I thought I would never talk about. In my culture, birth control is frown upon – it’s the devil! A woman who uses birth control is automatically categorized as promiscuous. Although I’ve had my share of sin – just like everyone…C’mon don’t be reading this blog all Mother Teresa’d! – I don’t consider myself promiscuous but I am a cautionary pragmatic. In a nutshell, I’d rather prevent than heal when it comes to a possible life-altering situation that I have control over.

So at one point last year, I got into a long term relationship – thought it would be anyways – and decided to get in touch with my feminine side – really not in the way one would expect… I got a copper IUD!

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Happy New Year from PV!!

“In the process of letting go, you will lose many things from the past, but you will find yourself.” – Deepak Chopra

Well well well… I stopped counting my days in Mexico but! There couldn’t be a better way to start the new year than a trip down south. Especially after dumping/being dumped (article upcoming) by a man who lied to me and thought he could waste my time – Do I seem like I don’t know what I want? These are the rules… take it or leave it, she’s not changing.

As the plane reached the sky I started realizing that there was more to life than my life issues.

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Self control – There is such a thing!

“As a woman you are better off in life earning your own money. You couldn’t prevent your husband from leaving you or taking another wife, but you could have some of your dignity if you didn’t have to beg him for financial support.”

Ayaan Hirsi Ali

This weekend, I’m visiting my family, it’s a birthday weekend here!!! Currently, 3:50 AM and I’ve woken up brutally from a nightmare that I’d frankly like to forget – Hence why it won’t be discussed here. I have also realized that my mom snores all night and since we share a bed, I won’t be falling asleep anytime soon…

Yesterday, we (siblings & I) went to the shopping mall, although there is money in my bank account and several things that I need (okay… okay… maybe I just want them!), I didn’t buy a thing !!!

It’s a weird thing I found, once your goals are starting to define themselves, it becomes easier to say no to rushed expenses. The “do I want it or do I need it ” never made more sense.

The current financial goal for my upcoming paycheques: determine where my money is going.

What’s yours?

Josie Escapes…

Ugh! That Awkward season again

“The fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. Wanting friends, but hate socializing. Wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely.”

I’m getting a pedicure today, sitting in the nail salon while someone is carefully taking care of my feet, I can’t stop thinking (Insert a French curse here). I have been going to the same Nail Salon for about 5-6 years – this is probably my longest relationship with anything in my life. I used to come here happy and chat about everything and anything. Now, I found I can’t speak anymore, I have lost the touch… If it isn’t “drywall” I don’t know what to say. Putting aside the fact that I am mentally tired and physically exhausted every time I go there, so all I want is rest, but I’d like for people to talk to me.

The last few weeks have been hard, it’s been a mix of me being too hard on myself and beating myself down for the wrong choices I made! I also have noticed that maybe I am just a summer person, I like biking, I like getting out there but not in the “awkward season” – I know you’re wondering what I mean so hang in there… The “awkward season for me” is the period between the end of the hot days (below 24°C) and January 5th. In that period of time, I basically have nothing to do with my life, I hate going out in the cold – I just lied, I’ll do it if there is booze, but you can’t bike and drive nor go drink by yourself in the forest, unless you are looking to die… and I’m not in that business.

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