11:11 Defeat, the post you’ll never read

“You don’t have to fear defeat if you believe it may reveal powers that you didn’t know you possessed.” – A random on Google

It happened at 11:11, the moment where all my hard work faded…

This was meant to be a complete other post. I am furious and enraged. A post that was meant to talk to you about a recent experience of mine is now a post about my frustration.

There is a saying that says you shouldn’t go to bed frustrated, so Im writing. In the hopes that by the time I share this with you, I will be calm enough to sleep – because no right now im not calm, im furious.

Furious at myself for being a perfectionist and how it cost me one of the nicest post I wrote to date – In my opinion (Would have loved to have yours but guess what…I lost the post – so I presume you’ll have to trust me on that one).

I spent 3hrs writing about a recent experience i had and was eagered to share it with you! The text was light, flowy, funny, strong – just like me sometimes. I had decided to give the WordPress app a try – B.I.G. Mistake. There is no autosave on the app ! So I wrote and wrote and wrote and it was beautiful. I finished the text and was looking for a way to « Justify » it.

I searched, I flipped the app upside down, I didn’t find a thing, I switched editor and selected all as I thought I could do « justify all » in the standard mode, well I was wrong ! I deleted the entire thing, deleted the draft and discarded all changes.

3 hard hours making sure I didn’t miss any details, yet now, I’ve missed them all. I can’t recall what I wrote in details and I am extremely exhausted right this moment.

I share this with you so you know I had a commitment to write, I wrote, it felt good. I lost it all and it pains…

Wishing you a better night than mine, go get your beauty sleep while I try not to have nightmare about my missing blog post. How would you feel ?

PS : I wrote this on the app again… and this time I ain’t « Justifying » nun !

Josie Escapes…

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